I long to escape this hell she placed me in long ago and then left me in. What was love is now hate, I think her to be vermin a disgusting piece of shit that I can’t get rid of fast enough. Parts of me think it would be better to destroy every thing she is and tell her she is nothing to me. Because her worth to me is fastly deminishing into nothing. I have things bottled up that i dare not speak becuase every were I turn that information is easily devulged.
I hate her, I hate the fact that I was strung along for so long and then used and mistreated in the end. I can not take it any more and I do not diserve this. These things have been permitted to accumilate until there is nothing of myself left to forge upon. I dont want this any more . I wish i had never met her. i wish that for one life time I was not followed by her. I wish that for once in atleast this life time I am able to escape things. because like my favorite alchahol my friendship with her is on the rocks.
Karenza Marie Trotter